I'm like, really panicking here, guys. THE TEST IS COMING UP IN A COUPLE WEEKS OR SO AND I HAVE TWO JUMPS I CAN'T DOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I've been practicing these jumps but I don't see much improvement! I really want to pass the test this time and get into Preliminary.
Although, I guess I know one reason why I don't see much improvement. Lately, I haven't been practicing much because recently I've made a lot of friends at the Icehouse who go every Sunday too, just like me. And so, I'm getting distracted in mucking around with them instead of training. T_T I'm glad today that I told one of the girls (the main one I hang out with) that I'd rather train at the moment, and so she let me. The thing is, I always feel bad afterwards. It's always like that, even with friends who straight away don't even need to tell you that you can just walk off without saying so to start spinning or something. Even with that, I'm thinking, "Oh, I should be hanging out with them" but then my skating is just as important to me as my friends are to me. I guess just don't like having much friends around when I'm at skating, because I want to practice yet at the same time, I don't want to seem snobby and rude and be like, "Oh, my skating is so much important than you. I don't wanna hang out with you, sooooo I think I'm just going to practice as a way of avoiding you." OMG, I'm fucking (excuse the language) ranting off like shit (excuse the language again) right now. You know what, my skating is important and I'm just going to say, "Sweetie, I love you but I have to ditch you right now so I can practice for my upcoming test. BYE~!" Yeah...that sounds good. Yeah, I'll just say that. I seriously can't be fucked in saying anything else.
But enough of me ranting, so pretty much, my sit spins have improved as well. I am so much lower than I was weeks ago AND I'M SO GLAD OF THAT. YESS~! I just hope I finally get my flip and waltz-loop jump soon. TT^TT
Mara Isabel Santos. 19 years old. Currently in Freeskate 4 working on Preliminary. :)